Aki ma to tenshi no kiss (Devil and Angel's Kiss)

Off to celebrate a birthday!

I visited my brother’s grave yesterday with my mother.  She wanted to go for her birthday present.  It’s been so long since I visited.  Maybe 8 years?  Time flies so fast.  To remember death and celebrate life on the same day.  Surprisingly, I was much at peace as I still am today.  Maybe just reflecting.  Feeling the quiet gratefulness of the journey I walked and who I am today.  Looking forward to my many more days; I will forge ahead.

Surprise!

My brother was cremated and buried and there is room for another cremation on his same lot.  My mother and I planned long ago that she would also be cremated and laid to rest with my brother.  Since the plot only holds two cremations total, it made me contemplate where I would go once my time came.  I love my mother and my brother, but I also felt my final resting place would be somewhere different.  This thought doesn’t sadden me.  It surprisingly gives me a quiet kind of contentedness.  

The doctors are telling me I need a number of my veins and capillaries and such embolized before my heart and lung transplant.  This is basically coiling (to close) certain veins and such, ones that are not that necessary, as to minimize bleeding when they begin the operation.  They told me the doctors for that will contact me to schedule when this procedure would be.  They called today and scheduled a “consultation” for the procedure at the end of the month, which means the actual procedure won’t be until early December.  Lol, this makes me laugh so much.  Here is my transplant nurse coordinator practically shaming me for trying to see my eye doctor to get contacts before the surgery (I didn’t want to stay in the hospital for a potential month and have blurry vision thank you) because she was worried I’m stalling and here they are taking their sweet ass time getting me scheduled for this procedure they want me to go.  Don’t get me wrong.  I’m grateful to have the procedure.  I’m grateful my lung/heart team are being so diligent using all their expertise to minimize risk so that I can come out of this alive.  I just find it funny that my nurse coordinator was so unkind for basically no reason.

Visit from my aunt and great
aunts

A part of me is superficially annoyed that this thing is dragging on and on, but the larger part of me is very grateful and at peace with it.  It makes me feel more relaxed, that I have more time to spend with my loved ones.  I get to spend Thanksgiving at home, so I’m looking forward to that.  I must make time to gorge myself.

I have a lot of appointments this week.  I’m going to stream now before it gets too late.

See you in Silent Hill . . .

Anime Songs that live in my soul

Full Moon Light (Devil Hunter Yohko)

Mamono Hunter Youko (Devil Hunter Yohko)

Konya wa Hurricane (There's a Hurricane Tonight - Bubblegum Crisis)

Konya wa Hurricane

Aki ma to tenshi no kiss (Devil and Angel's Kiss - Bubblegum Crisis)

Aki ma to tenshi no kiss (Bubblegum Crisis)

 Vampire Princess Miyu OVA Opening

Vampire Princess Miyu OVA